This is going to be a two-part post called Help! I’m in love with my Pastor.”
Note: this post is directed to women who are in love with married pastors. This is a very common problem. You are not the first to feel this way.
The biggest issue is not that you are in love with a married man (although that is a huge problem); the issue is you really do not know what love is. Somehow, you were cheated or misinformed about true Godly love between a man and a woman.
That does not happen from afar, it happens when someone gave you a poor picture of what love is. Maybe it was your parents. Could have been Lifetime network, who knows. It could even be a case of mental illness and obsession. It’s not love- not real love, anyway.
It might be more like lust. There is a difference between love and lust. But, that’s another subject. So, now back to the subject at hand.
You’ve allowed your strong emotional connection to your married pastor to morph into something lustful, and frankly, wicked. It is not Godly because God would NEVER prompt you to do anything against His commandments. He will never tell you to steal or covet. He would never tell you to be with a married man. NEVER!
Again, this is not uncommon. This often happens when weak-minded and weakened Christians transpose affection and admiration into a romantic context. If this is you, acknowledge it,
You are simply confused. That doesn’t mean you’re evil, but if you continue in this way, Satan can use you to bring about evil. You don’t want that, do you?
If you are Christian, repent now. It is not too late to change your heart and redeem your future. The Lord knows your desire for love and acceptance. He can bring this to you in a real and meaningful way, but, do not allow this to continue, dear sister. He has someone just for you. Someone wonderful that will love you with his entire heart.
Help from God…
Go to God. Express your sorrow (and struggle) regarding this situation. Do not stop there. The most important part of repentance includes the changing of paths. You must change the way you look at your pastor, you must change the way you react to your pastor, and you must guard your thoughts and your heart regarding your pastor.
For example, when you find yourself daydreaming about your pastor or leaning towards ungodly feelings for him, stop yourself. Quickly!
You can control yourself. You’re not an animal or a dog. You can control your thoughts, your mind, and definitely your body. Stop at that very moment, change your thought process. Replace that thought with a scripture of strength or a promise from the Word.
God loves you so very much. And He can deliver you and set you free from this lust. Again, He has a “portion” or a man just for you. The best part is that the man is not married! Right? Right.
Trust your Savior to give you what is yours. Control your emotions and your fixations so you did venture further into sin.
It’s not worth it…
Destroy God’s ministry and you will reap what you sow. Look at David and Bathsheba. Sin results in consequences. Yes, God does forgive. But, God always punishes sin and never spares discipline. I don’t want that for you and you don’t want that for you.
If you’re not a Christian or if you are stuck in stubborn rebellion concerning your attraction to your married to your Pastor, may God have mercy on you. God never deals gently was sin, but he deals kindly with repentance. Turn it around now.
Find someone to help you…
My final advice to you is to find a trusted friend you can confide in about the situation. Make sure it’s someone who lives a Godly life and it’s not overwhelmed by sin themselves. If they are truly Godly, they will restore you in this fault and not put you down.
God has a plan for you.
He has a beautiful plan for you. Don’t accept cheap “table scraps” when God has something beyond what you could ever hope for think or imagine.
Don’t be cheap nor sell yourself cheap. That’s not God’s will for you.
First, I want you to know I commend you for taking action to end this. Romans 8 means you should not live in condemnation for the past. Jesus loves you so much and has great plans for your life. Embrace his forgiveness. You are right to end that relationship. It doesn’t matter how it started or even how long it lasted. All that matters is today. You are moving on and focusing on your portion – which is your husband. Confusion is normal. Hurt is normal and it is even normal to grieve the ending of something such as a relationship. Your pastor is wrong in his actions and should not reach out to you. God will handle him and convict his heart I pray. However, I care about you and want you to work toward wholeness. Soul ties are broken in Jesus name. Greater is He that is in you! It may not always feel like it, but feeling have nothing to do with it. You’re already victorious because of the work Christ did on the cross. Don’t believe anything that tells you different. The enemy will lie in your ear and whisper all the reasons you need to reignite this relationship – BUT DON’T! If you can, find a book called “Bondage Breaker”. It may help. However, in the end no matter who difficult this situation is to break loose from – you can in Jesus name. He will empower you with His Holy Spirit to withstand the temptation. Please. Please. Please. Let it go. Let him go and work toward healing, ok? You deserve so much better and so much more. Finally, please find another church. It will help toward your progression toward healing. For what it is worth, I love you and will begin praying for your strength.
Thank you for your compassion. I regret the choice I’ve made, but I’m moving forward. I do love my husband very much . Our marriage has been tried in this exact same area 2 years into our marriage, and I just refuse to keep this going. Yes, I’m hurting, but I know God hears my prayer. By your response I know God heard my prayer. I love you my sister in Christ, and I will get the book , and please pray my strength. Thank you for your blog, and thank you for responding. God Bless!!
Anytime. Remember, we are all on a journey toward being conformed into the image of Christ. We ALL have bumps, temptations and failures. The key is never giving up. I love you and thank you. Since you’re not alone in such a situation, your honesty in posting here will help other women in similar situations who just happen to read this. They will know someone else in the world knows how they feel and is working toward restoration. You’ll likely bless more women than you ever know! I love you!
I’ve had two of the biggest prophets in the world approach me and my very own pastor make moves on me please email me back I need help !!! If I was to mention thier names you would know immediately. But I won’t.
No need to mention names. I’m so sorry. Those people are no representative of who God is. There’s really nothing I can do but tell you continue having your integrity and NOT fall for the enemy’s tricks. God will handle them. You just keep away from them as much as possible and never be alone with them, Sweetie. Again, I’m so sorry. You don’t deserve to be treated that way.